Like many others I have “doubted” my salvation. As a younger person when I would fall short or sin as God refers to it, I would have this overwhelming guilt and shame which would ultimately lead me to doubt that I was ever saved. So, through the years I just dealt with this scenario (daily) as best I could until I decided one day that I wouldn’t simply be a sideline Christian, but rather an active believer. The after shocks of that decision were life changing.
I discovered that just like a new born baby who desires to be feed (1 Peter 2:2) I too had a strong urge to feast on God’s word. It took several years for me to come to this knowledge, but I am thankful it came. I recalled back to the day I accepted Jesus as my Savior that there was a very strong desire for me to know more about God. I sadly was never discipled and therefore didn’t learn to feed the Holy Spirit which now dwelt within me.
I was asked a few years ago whether or not I ever doubted my salvation. I came to the conclusion that my salvation is not what I was doubting, it was God’s faithful to keep his word that I doubted. I discovered that the more I read and meditate on His word, the more I trust His Word. (John 1)
